One or Two?

So after having my wonderful ultrasound on Thursday (after a spotting issue I had over the weekend which I probably blew out of proportion) I found out that I'm pregnant with twins! The only questionable detail is that one is a healthy, heart-beating fetus measuring correctly for the gestation time and the other was a week behind. (7 weeks & 6 weeks respectively) I've been doing research after the report read a "possible" blighted ovum for the smaller baby~ the girl I strongly believe. I read that blighted ovums are EMPTY gestational sacs and mine or her's is not empty. She's in there, laying n the bottom like her neighbor brother, but much smaller and too young to see a yolk sac, fetal pole, or heartbeat. So now I have some hope that she was just a seperate conception (two ovulations perhaps) and all will be fine. I do, however, know that God's will is His will and if I have at least one healthy baby, I'm blessed beyond belief. I was a little upset that the tech didn't print me a picture of the little miss. All I have is a sneak peek of her sac in the corner of big boy's photo. :(

Ergo, it's no wonder why I'm only 8 weeks and showing like I'm starting the second trimester! And why my clothes are much too snug!
Count your blessings! :-}

Cravings...

Okay so after packing a wonderful salad with chicken and a hard boiled egg (which I devoured yesterday for lunch) I realized that my efforts to eat 100% healthy-er, even 75%- is very hard to do. Especially whilst pregnant. I quickly traded my salad for the McDonald's dollar menu. I am 7 weeks, 4 days preggo and my craving and hunger are ever increasing. I woke up at 3 in the am due to stomach rumbling! Too tired to fix a snack, I slept through the hunger pains, but I don't think I can do that for much longer!

One of the things I'm drawn to is salt. I just devoured about half a family size bag of Fiesta Salsa Sun Chips in 10 minutes.

I also like dairy products, like cheese, yogurt, and milk. Yum, I could really take a grilled cheese and tomoto soup right about now! Oh and beef is another food I generally don't desire but have been craving to no end. Thankfully God blessed me with no morning sickness! Am I ever grateful?!

Next to the cravings the fatigue has been kicking my butt. I teach art to grades Pk-8 and I can hardly make it through a half day. Then I try to go to bed and insomnia keeps my tossing and turning. Lord help me!


Needless to say, I'm soooo so excited to meet my little "blueberry". Tomorrow is the first ultrasound and I feel so grateful! I think it will be my first day to write in a diary to my little love.

Have a love-filled day <3

...five weeks and counting

...counting the time for bed that is. Yesterday was the nurse appointment that confirmed my pregnancy tests weren't a waste if money! Now...I'm so tired I could sleep with my eyes wide open. Up until today (scratch that, yesterday) I was amazed that I didn't feel any more tired than usual. Regular me would get tired EVERY afternoon at 1:30 ish and laps into a post-lunch coma. Just in time to teach the ever active kindergarten class at the very last period of the day. I'd literally want to cry my way home. But today, it hit me like a snowball in the face. At about 11 am, I wanted to crawl back home and into bed. PLUS< my allergies are awful right now and my throat haas been raw since last night. Ears blocked. Nose stuffed. Eyes sore. Bags big and purple. Post nasal drip. Go ahead and check ALL the boxes. But alas, I made it through the day after a trip to Walgreens and a Neti Pot cleansing over my classroom sink... good thing we sanitize!

It's not yet 7 and as soon as I finish these sweet potato tater tots with honey mustard (my craving of late) I'll be fast asleep.


*** Flash back! When I was in the 6th grade while riding home, some kids were throwing snowballs at our bus as we drove by. We turned the corner and thanks to physics and sheer fate, a snowball entered the window THREE seats ahead of me, made a sharp curve, and slammed me right in the face. Went all under my glasses and sat wedged between the lens and my eye. Yup. That's how the fatigue hit me today. Like a mean stranger throwing snowballs at my bus.

This is THE DAY that the Lord has made...

I will rejoice and be glad in it!

I'm grateful for waking up another day and having mercy and grace all fresh and new. Like Jabez, I desire for the Lord to bless me on this day! And I'm bold and not ashamed to ask :)
Find Jabez in 1 Chronicles 4:10.

Even on this solemn anniversary of 9/11, I worship God. My prayers are with those who lost loved ones and friends and for the children who never got precious time with their family members... But God is a healer and a comforter. Even though healing may seem impossible, He can do impossible things.

I love HIM and He loves you. Be blessed.

It's True!

My womanly intuition (and the ability to read my body signs) was true! I'll be 5 weeks pregnant tomorrow! And I'm still trying to wrap my mind around the thought of a son or daughter forming in me right now... right at this very second. It's such a miracle!!!

I'm shocked because I know so many couples require multiple attempts at conceiving and I am conscious that we are very early along. Still my heart OVERFLOWS with joy and gratitude and humility! God you are just so good...

Now I'm trying to contain myself from going out and buying a crib and changing table!!! Early next week I'm seeing the nurse to get the "official" positive, even though I've checked 4 times just to wake up from this dream! The most challenging part will be limiting myself when it comes to exercising and not overdoing it. When I work out I like to push to my max! But now I have to think of the little jelly bean inside! ( I think it's really a sesame seed at the moment.)

Off I go to sing and smile some more. Make your day beautiful!

Hurrican Irene and other thoughts...

In and out of storms
Readiness is mandatory
Even when you feel it's
Not.
Everyone has to guard their life.

*Where do insects go when a storm is coming and why don't they all blow away?

*Why is Rite Aid open tonight until 8 and all day tomorrow if there is a tropical storm and they've run out of batteries already? Is cereal and greeting cards really worth risking the employee's lives?

*Were the tornados that came in June just preparing us for this natural phenomenon?

God is good all the time!

Symptoms or something else??

Okay, I truly have noticed as of late how much I talk about the happenings of my body to those around me.... {Makes me wonder how people view me.} Between fracturing my knee in May and the other myriad of issues I tend to notice I've had much to discuss. But nothing tops the discussion cake like what I have going on now.

Pregnancy symptoms.... waaaaaaaaay to early.

Okay okay- I know they differ in everyone. But why have I had: Cramps, fatigue, insomnia, BAD lower back pain, stomach aches and tightness, dizziness, spacey brain, abundant gas, extreme hunger, rollercoaster emotions (I cried when I found out my husband got the job I knew he was bound to get! And again when he said he needed cheese for his spaghetti! WHAT???!!) and it's WAY to early to be PMS? There are more symptoms but I feel they are too invasive to share with the WWW. Specifically, some of them started as early as 3-4 days after ovulation. I feel half crazy and I really don't want to trick myself into felling something that's not for real. UGH!

Regardless, it was enough to postpone my much anticipated corrective knee surgery due to the risk it could pose to the "baby", or possible bundle of cells developing at a fast rate in my uterus. I do my research, people. Oh yeah, and P.S. I might not even be preggers! It could be all in my imagination or something like meningitis! I told my mother today "If I'm not PG, I'm either losing my mind or my body is shutting down."

Since it's too early for me to test @ home and I loathe co-pays we will just have to wait and see. Maybe the Songbird's Nest will soon be the Songbirds' Nest! (I already intend on birthing little minature singers/musicians!)

Ciao for now... and thanks for reading. Pray for the likes of me.